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Roots of Abortion - the origins of desire

Live by the Spirit, I Say, and do not gratify the desires of the flesh.  For what the flesh desires is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit desires is opposed to the flesh; for these are opposed to one another, to prevent you from doing what you want. (Gal 5:16-17)

Desire originated in the heart of God.  He brought forth the heavens and the earth, made light and separated light from darkness, formed the firmaments and the seas, populated earth with all manner of vegetation and moving creatures, and placed the stars in the heavens.  Then he fashioned humankind, and honored us by creating us in His own likeness.  He set man apart from the rest of creation by breathing into his nostrils, “and man became a living soul”.

The earth, the seas, the day and night, the plants and beasts, all were deemed “good” by God, because they were good for the pinnacle of His creation who would have dominion over it all: man.  Though we don’t read the word “desire” in those opening verses of Genesis, we cannot escape seeing God’s desire to bless man.

If God has given special favor to humankind, from the very start that favor has placed us in the path of the enemy of God, who targets us for defilement and destruction.  That which God loves most, His enemy seeks to tear down.  We know about Lucifer that when he was in heaven he also had a desire, and that was to “be like the Most High”.  For that he and one third of the angels were thrown out of heaven. 

He is still trying to be like the Most High, but all his methods are counterfeit.  He seeks to refashion man in his own image, just like God did.  We see his strategy in the Garden of Eden, as he tells Eve that she can be like God, and kindles a desire in her based on lies and born of his own frustrated ambitions.  Through new eyes she sees that the tree is "to be desired to make one wise."

Eve is persuaded that she knows better than God how to be blessed, and so she rejects God’s blessing in favor of her own “good ideas”.  This is how a wedge is driven between God and His favored creation.

We are all Eve's children.  It is no surprise when we hear ourselves proclaiming our sovereignty over our lives with words like, “I know what’s best for me”.  “I don’t need God”.  “I am the master of my fate”.  “Nobody tells me what to do”.  “I’m in charge of my life”.  “I have my rights”! How in the world can we know better than our Creator what is best for us?  “Should the thing made say about its maker, “He didn’t make me”?  Or should the pottery say about the potter, “He doesn’t understand”? 

Sex is a God-given gift, as is marriage. According to the perfect will of God, sex can lead to the gift of life. When we abuse these gifts we are just like Eve, preferring to do things our own way despite the cost.  What we call a “problem” God calls “a living soul”.  And because our sexual freedom and our will for ourselves are worth more to us than human life and God's will for us, we obscure the truth with politics, vague definitions of when life begins, and mostly, our desires. 

When I was a child my parents taught me that I could do anything I desired in life.  They sought to fill me with a sense of limitless possibilities, and to empower me with confidence and self-esteem.  Their goal was to have a household in which the word “no” was never heard.  I appreciate their intentions, but I misunderstood the lesson. I did grow up to do anything I desired in life, without any recognition of consequences, the feelings of others, the greater good, or even what was best for me.  I had no access to any rationale for decision making other than “I want it”, and I brought to every endeavor an attitude of entitlement, as though I had a right to it.

I considered the expression of my sexuality to be an essential part of being me.  Ironically, as I chanted about being “in charge of my own body”, when I became pregnant I did not think twice about allowing a strange man to insert surgical steel instruments into my most intimate inner parts, a place even my lovers had never entered, and vacuum out of my womb a living person in pieces.  The child I was blessed to carry within me was sacrificed to the god of sexual freedom.

In the ancient Hebrew scriptures we read about a god called Molech, one who would be King.  Those who worshiped Molech sacrificed children to him.  Here is a description from a Jewish Rabbinic commentary:

"Tophet is Molech, which was made of brass; and they heated him from his lower parts; and his hands being stretched out, and made hot, they put the child between his hands, and it was burnt; when it vehemently cried out; but the priests beat a drum, that the father might not hear the voice of his son, and his heart might not be moved."

This is what the God who created us has to say about Molech: "You must not give any of your children as an offering to Molech, so that you do not profane the name of your God.  I am the LORD"!

Satan took on the name of a king, and lured men to worship him, but He was none other than the pretender, the liar, the destroyer of life, the same old snake that seeks to tear down God’s favored creation. He was at work when Pharaoh commanded the killing of the firstborn in Egypt.  He was at work similarly when Herod commanded the killing of the children in Bethlehem to prevent the promised Messiah from coming up.  He was at work destroying the innocents in the Holocaust, and he is at work in the genocide of the unborn.  He knows the power of human desire, and wields it alongside his other weapons of destruction.

There is nothing we could possibly desire for ourselves that would be better than what God desires for us. He still seeks to bless us, and to return with us to the fellowship we had in the Garden of Eden before our pride separated us from Him.  He has made a way of return, but it may be too much to ask.  In order to be reconciled with God we are expected to put our desires aside and submit to God’s desires for us, to admit that Father knows best, and that we only make a mess of things when we do things our own way.  Who can believe such notions?

I did.  I am so thankful to my parents for enpowering me with a sense of limitless possibilities, which enabled me to cross a seemingly impassible divide, to meet Jesus. I confessed my sins, invited Jesus to be Lord of my life and surrendered my will to His.  I came to believe that Jesus paid my sin debt on the cross of Calvary so that I could be free and washed clean of the horror of abortion and every other mistake I’ve ever made. In so doing I have been given access to eternal communion with my Creator, outside of time, outside of the world and its decay, outside of sorrow and regret.

You are also invited to partake of this free gift.

And you He made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sins, in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience, among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others.

But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast. (Eph 2:1-9)